… I become aware of this presence, like the hum of a great song constantly reverberating throughout and emanating from my body, the ground beneath me, and the people around me. And I know this presence as a whole that is larger than the sum of the parts and yet inseparable from the parts… . And I experience this presence, this blood red thread of being that runs through the dark tapestry of daily life, as that which gives me the innate ability to truly know each other as another myself… . If I stay with my awareness of this presence I know it as the heat at the center of life, as the innate orgasmic joy that shouts “Live!” even as it spends itself fully. I know it as the essence, the very stuff of which I and everything that exists is made, and I remember that this- this Mystery that is sacred- is who and what we are.
I’ve been MIA for the past few months because I’ve been transitioning to motherhood. I created a new tumblr to focus specifically on the parenting side of yoga in case some who follow Beyond the Mat are less interested in the parenting topics. I aim to maintain both blogs, but if you are interested in yoga as it relates to parenting please follow me at mamayogi. The first Mama Yogi post is below.
I’ve acquired a major new role in my life, that of mother. It occurred a little sooner than anticipated, as my son, William Monte, made his appearance almost 6 weeks early. I’m sure it’s just the first of many surprises I’ll be thrown as a mother. So far, and I’m just shy of 7 weeks into this new role, I’m absolutely loving it. It’s not “easy”, but it feels so natural. I could definitely call it “easeful” at this point in time. I’m grateful for all my life lessons and experiences leading up to motherhood, as I think they will serve me in this amazing endeavor. Yoga lessons abound, I’m sure. Here are a few worth noting so far:
- Life cannot be perfectly “planned”. Luckily Monte came before I even had a chance to write a “birth plan”. But really, all plans were easily thrown out the window when a pre-term delivery is about to take place. The first few hours at the hospital were the hardest because I had to come to term with how things were vs. how I wanted them to be. For instance, learning my baby would be in NICU for up to several weeks was not happy labor news. Once I let go, and just let it be what it was, everything fell into place and what I got was pretty much what I wanted: a quick labor, no pain medication, supported by midwives and with awesome medical support at my side.
- You gotta be flexible. Because things can’t be well planned with a newborn (see above), you gotta be flexible and need the same from others for some time. Set time commitments freak me out a bit because I have no idea what Monte’s eating schedule will be day by day. The ability to “go with the flow” is extremely beneficial for all.
- It’s not about “Achievements”. In yoga, it’s easy to get focused on achieving a certain pose, but I think one achieves an advanced practice when one let’s go of this criteria. The same goes with parenting. It’s not about hitting the milestones on target or the number of activities one can complete in one day. Parenting, like yoga, is about the long-term journey of life. Yes, achievements are made along the way, but a present-minded focus reveals what basic steps must be taken today, even if it’s simply keeping everyone clean, fed & well-rested.
These are just a few lessons I’ve seen so far. The fact that I started this post 4 weeks ago and am just now completing it demonstrates most of the points I made above. But I look forward to sharing more regularly how yoga has taught me (& others) lessons that I can apply to this new journey of parenthood.
Within you there is a stillness and a sanctuary to which you can retreat at anytime and be yourself.